I wish that JC was a complete jerk. I wish that he had cheated on me. I wish that he had done something so horrendous like insult my mom or something that I could hate him, and be pissed off!!!! Instead I have to live with the fact that he's such a good person, and he always treated me right...better than anyone else I had ever been with, and that he's really, really someone special. WHY THE HELL CAN'T HE JUST GET IT TOGETHER??? WHY IN THE HELL DIDN'T HE LOVE ME ENOUGH TO DO THAT???
I went out Friday night, and....I met someone. We really, really hit it off. I think some of you who know me really well would be shocked at how good looking he is. His name is Paul, he's 29, and he's only been in San Antonio for about a week. Anyway, we talked all night, I drank a little too much, and so did he, so the night didn't actually end that well because there was an argument between him and Andrea. I thought he was a little rude, and also maybe he would be scared off. But we were texting last night, and we're going to meet up next Friday. I really do think he should apologize to Andrea first though. Although, I'm so green with this dating thing...I almost think that's too much to ask when you're getting to know someone. I don't know, you tell me. Saturday I pretty much did nothing but recover. And then Sunday, Andrea, Gabby, and I went hiking. We did a Level 4 out of 5 trail for an hour and a half. I'm not sure how many miles it...
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"I've been needing something from him so bad."
I know it sucks-but maybe this is for the better.
See you on the 17th! :)
JZ
Anon - Yea, but that was in context with a lot of things that were going on with me because I was sick and severely depressed because of it.
Jacq - I try. I just know what's best for ME, ya know?