Skip to main content

Ugh!

I guess I should get some of what happened today out, but I just don't seem to have the words for it. Does that make sense. I saw him today. I talked to him yesterday, and we made arrangements to do the whole "giving stuff back" thing today. He borrowed his roommates car to come over here...and I don't know how I feel. It wasn't good or bad, or either. It was calm and it was emotional all at the same time. The A&M football jersey that is his "pride and joy"...he said he was thinking that I should keep it...he wanted me to have it...I just don't know what to say. Nothing has changed...it was just more a goodbye...I don't know...It definitely wasn't "good", but it wasn't bad. And I feel relieved or better...maybe those aren't really the words I'm looking for, but I don't know if I feel that way because I had another "JC fix" or because I just cried so hard that I have that after crying your eyes out feeling, ya know? He cried, too...hard...I guess it's time to really start telling myself to move on instead of dwelling on it so much. It's gonna hurt and I'm gonna be sad, but that's ok, right? And I'll be ok? I'll be OK...

Comments

Jacq said…
I know how you feel! Dwelling on things is the worst feeling ever. You seem to be doing pretty well under the circumstances. Good for you! You know what they say, "When one door closes, another door opens..."
8:02 AM
The Blonde Hurricane said…
You know, Liz, sometimes you just have to let go and let things be and see what happens. It hurts like hell, but I totally believe in the cheesy saying about "if you love someone, set them free" and all that jazz. If it really is meant to be something, things will come together.
3:37 PM
Jacq said…
Listen to us with all these sayings! Ha Ha. Jess and I are experienced mamas. We know what we is talkin bout. ;P
8:42 AM
Compulsive Lizzie said…
I love hearing from you guys! You've made my day on occassion, and you have no idea how much I appreciate it!
10:21 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

FYI

Just so you know...my computer is sitting here, on the floor, next to me...at my parent's house!!! Woo Hoo! I've taken the first step in getting it fixed...but alas, there it sits...I'm not the only slacker in the family! Also, I turn 30 in less than 20 days...
2 comments
Read more
WTF? God, I feel great. I am a typical cancer (please refer back to this ). "At times you will seem to have the greatest love for life, yet at others you can be nothing but a self-pitying mess. You can be pleasant and cheerful, or you can be egotistical and vain." Yep, that's me! So, now comes the part where I have a great love of life. And isn't it sad that it stems from feeling secure that someone likes me? One final down...3 more to go! I can't wait for this semester to be over. It has been really hard. Really it was last Spring semester that was really hard, and almost killed me...and that semester seems to have put me in burnout mode for this past semester. But, next semester is new, and will probably kill me with how busy I'll be since I go back to work full-time in the Spring...but as much as I complain...I like being busy, busy, busy! Off to see Aaron the Beast in a couple of hours. Didn't have time to shave my legs this morning. ...
Post a Comment
Read more

What is up?

Whew! I made it to my parent's house for once. My computer is still down, but it is my fault for not bringing it over to my dad's to get it fixed. It's kind of nice though to not always be so worried about checking my email or what not. I've been pretty busy. I was working my usually seasonal job for the last three weeks. Halloween happened, of course (pictures coming), and I've been interviewing like crazy. I'm going to be looking into temp jobs this week. I got a call from one, and she was going to put me into this once company that I've put in like 12 applications for. So, it might be easier for me to just find a temp-to-hire job. At least then I'll be relatively done with this whole interview crap. I don't even get nervous anymore...I just hate it. I'd rather sit in a bath tub full of frogs. Ok, maybe not that, but something else just as painful... I seriously had a blog written up in my head every single day for the last few wee...
2 comments
Read more