I haven't had much to say...I don't have any recapping of anything except for my trip to DC. The all of 5 pictures that I took though are on REAL film, and I need to get them developed. So, I need to do that...and I'm trying to piece together in my mind some kind of "goodbye" or something for myself...I just haven't had many words lately...lots and lots of anger though...lots of the kind of anger where you really want to scream and punch somebody's head in. I would really like to do that. I saw a therapist for 3 years when I was in high school, and she had this matress leaning against a wall in one of the back offices, and whenever I was being a particularly angry brat...she would drag me in there and make me hit the crap out of the mattress with a Nerf baseball bat...GOD! That was relief...I could sure use one of those now...or a huge head with dumb spikey highlights and a few more teeth I could knock into pieces!
Am I Going To Die? I just got stung for the first time ever by a wasp . . . So far so good . . . I can still breathe, I haven't swelled up like a balloon, yet . . . But it hurts and itches like crazy!!! It's almost the end of the semester and I am completely swamped! Two projects, two papers, and three finals, all in the next 3 weeks . . . Somehow I'll handle it. I've actually all of sudden "woken up" where school is concerned. I've been in such a daze for like the last 7 or 8 months. The AOC has changed my life as I knew it . . . in good and bad ways!!! Bad because he takes up too much of my thoughts . . . and I need all the brain capacity that I can get!!! Somehow, after years of barely even talking to anyone at work, and only a couple of years of actually being a little more friendly with my co-workers, I seem to have been sucked up in "office politics" and I HATE it! I used to really like going to work . . . now I just want to quit!! It still...
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