I haven't had much to say...I don't have any recapping of anything except for my trip to DC. The all of 5 pictures that I took though are on REAL film, and I need to get them developed. So, I need to do that...and I'm trying to piece together in my mind some kind of "goodbye" or something for myself...I just haven't had many words lately...lots and lots of anger though...lots of the kind of anger where you really want to scream and punch somebody's head in. I would really like to do that. I saw a therapist for 3 years when I was in high school, and she had this matress leaning against a wall in one of the back offices, and whenever I was being a particularly angry brat...she would drag me in there and make me hit the crap out of the mattress with a Nerf baseball bat...GOD! That was relief...I could sure use one of those now...or a huge head with dumb spikey highlights and a few more teeth I could knock into pieces!
What is the definition of love?
Some anonymous person asked me this in the 'comments section' many blogs ago. A hard one to answer...everyone has a different answer...I am slowly admitting to myself that I have never truly been in love...I have felt deep affection for people, and I have had my feelings manipulated, and I have definitely been in lust...But I honestly can say that I've never been in love on my own terms...I'm so ready to be swept completely off my feet...
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