I woke up this morning, and so far I feel ok...we'll see what happens through out the day...the sadness and sobbing just seems to creep up on me.
So, DC tomorrow to see Jessie and everyone!!! I'm excited! I need a serious sabbatical, and that's what this is like! E, Jessie's boyfriend said he'd fill his huge bathtub with Macaroni and Cheese just for me...ok, well, that might be a little much, but he still said he'd make me some! Yum! My favorite! I went shopping yesterday and got a new sweater and a new pair of pants for Jessie's Christmas party on Saturday. Thank god JC paid me back the money he owed me when I saw him on Sunday! See? He is a good person...Otherwise I would be completely broke for this trip!
So, the ex-boyfriend that wrote me an email, and I decided to respond, to kind of make peace with it...for relationship karma or whatever? I knew this would happen, and I know that he's going to read this, but this is why I've been "mean" to him without wanting to be. Every time I give him even the smallest amount of communication he starts calling or whatever all over the place. This is why I WILL NOT allow myself to become desperate and call JC five hundred times a day to try to make him change his mind, even though I want to...even though I want to beg and plead every freakin' day. But I won't ever do that to someone...I've had it done to me way too many times, and I would just like JC to remember the good parts of our relationship and not remember some psycho that I became after we broke up. Besides absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?...if everything isn't that bad to begin with???
So, DC tomorrow to see Jessie and everyone!!! I'm excited! I need a serious sabbatical, and that's what this is like! E, Jessie's boyfriend said he'd fill his huge bathtub with Macaroni and Cheese just for me...ok, well, that might be a little much, but he still said he'd make me some! Yum! My favorite! I went shopping yesterday and got a new sweater and a new pair of pants for Jessie's Christmas party on Saturday. Thank god JC paid me back the money he owed me when I saw him on Sunday! See? He is a good person...Otherwise I would be completely broke for this trip!
So, the ex-boyfriend that wrote me an email, and I decided to respond, to kind of make peace with it...for relationship karma or whatever? I knew this would happen, and I know that he's going to read this, but this is why I've been "mean" to him without wanting to be. Every time I give him even the smallest amount of communication he starts calling or whatever all over the place. This is why I WILL NOT allow myself to become desperate and call JC five hundred times a day to try to make him change his mind, even though I want to...even though I want to beg and plead every freakin' day. But I won't ever do that to someone...I've had it done to me way too many times, and I would just like JC to remember the good parts of our relationship and not remember some psycho that I became after we broke up. Besides absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?...if everything isn't that bad to begin with???
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WE'RE SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU!!! I keep saying that "I can't wait for Liz to get here!!" I really can't. I'm SO HOPING that you don't get in late, or run in to weather, I'll die! Die!
Be sure to bring cute shoes.