1. I've been spending most of my time at the pool with J.C. and Mi-Mi - everyday, all afternoon, until J.C. has to go to work, and I have to pick up Gabby. It's kind of driving me crazy, though, that Mi-Mi is rushing us to go to the pool everyday, all afternoon, and I just want to spend some snuggling time with Obi-Wan.
2. I've been extremely insecure with my relationship with J.C. lately, which is in turn driving him crazy!
3. I go back to work in one week!
4. I go back to school in two weeks!
5. My fabulous summer, which could quite possibly rival the Summer of 1993, the summer I turned 16 and that I spent completely intoxicated, is almost over!
6. I have yet to introduce J.C. to my parents.
7. We might go to Obi-Wan's restaurant for my dad's birthday on Sunday. I told my mom maybe we shouldn't go. It might be mean on my part to throw J.C. to the wolves (meeting my parents, and my sister and brother-in-law) for the first time in his Obi-Wan costume while he has to maintain his British accent.
8. J.C. said that he would actually love that, he would be "Smooth like Butta", but now I've already put it out of my parent's head.
9. I haven't had any motivation for the gym at all.
10. The 15lbs I've gained in the last two months is driving me crazy the most right at this minute as I eat my bagel with gallons of cream cheese, and my coffee that I stopped putting skim milk in, and have been treating myself to half and half.
2. I've been extremely insecure with my relationship with J.C. lately, which is in turn driving him crazy!
3. I go back to work in one week!
4. I go back to school in two weeks!
5. My fabulous summer, which could quite possibly rival the Summer of 1993, the summer I turned 16 and that I spent completely intoxicated, is almost over!
6. I have yet to introduce J.C. to my parents.
7. We might go to Obi-Wan's restaurant for my dad's birthday on Sunday. I told my mom maybe we shouldn't go. It might be mean on my part to throw J.C. to the wolves (meeting my parents, and my sister and brother-in-law) for the first time in his Obi-Wan costume while he has to maintain his British accent.
8. J.C. said that he would actually love that, he would be "Smooth like Butta", but now I've already put it out of my parent's head.
9. I haven't had any motivation for the gym at all.
10. The 15lbs I've gained in the last two months is driving me crazy the most right at this minute as I eat my bagel with gallons of cream cheese, and my coffee that I stopped putting skim milk in, and have been treating myself to half and half.
Comments
You are starting to sound unsure about you relationship with AC or Jc whatever his name is. I think in all honesty you are just going through an infatuation phase. You are going through a short-lived passion. It's coming to an end. The fact that he was there and gave you all the attention you wanted from a man and made you laugh and feel wanted. That made you very attracted to him but let;s face it your heart is really not in it. Is it? Have you really sat there and thought about and asked your self Do I love him or Am I loving the attention? MY oppinion is you are just lving the attention he is giving you. Is you can picture yourself with years from today then you truly love him but if you don't then why prolong it. Be honest with him and tell him your exact feelings pretending like nothing is wrong is the worst thing you can do to him and your self. Don't feel sorry for him if you are not into him like he is into you. Have compassion for him and explain your feelings. He is a grown man and should learn to live with it or just walk away. Maybe you are just having mixed emotions. Could it be that your heart is really into the ACO Or AOC whatever his name is. Another thing I noticed you want to be him but you are unsure about him. Do you think maybe it's cause you are afraid to be alone? You are a very how do we say Una Signorina Bellisssima...you are a very Beautiful Woman. You are headed in the right direction by going to school and doing what you want. Keep going to school and finsh up. Are you down casue you gained some of your wieght back? You look fantabulous...no need to worry. I know I know it's a woman thing. Thanks for reading what I wrote maybe I make sense to you or maybe I don't. It's my way of blogging.
Bouna Notte.
Anon - I have asked myself if I'm really in love with JC, or if it's attention. I think everyone has to ask themselves that, and honestly, I really am in love with him. I am looking forward to a time where "forever" is involved. I have gone for the attention in the past, but there are so many things that are different in this relationship on so many different levels. And I've never even met the AOC in person. I think that was more for attention getting.
Min - You're so shallow. LOL I have a book for you to read.
Italian - Will you be my best friend?