So at work I'm crosstraining with everyone in the company. Meaning that I have to go and sit with people who are doing stuff that I'm not even going to do. It's just so I understand the "assembly line". For the afternoon I was up on Joshy's floor. It made me feel good to have him around. He's always been there when I fall.
But I have had an epiphany lately. I have spent the last 15 years of my life living for other people...living for stupid men who can't grow up. Three of them. And I went to school for my mom...at least at first...and of course I have to live everyday for Gabby. But now I have the perfect opportunity. I gave up so many job options to stay here in SA to be with JC because HE said he wanted to move in together...and HE said he wanted to marry me and have babies. So for the last two years...and especially for the last 8 months since I graduated...I lived basically to accomodate him. So....now I can do what I want. I can try to let go of all the silly fears that keep me from doing what I want. And I have wanted to be a personal trainer for forever. I think I would be so good at it. When I was working out hard...and lost so much weight...and was healthy...I actually had like 3 different people at work sign up at the gym...and everyone went on a healthy diet that year. I think I can motivate...and I think I can sell.
So...I talked to Ray the Savior today during my workout. And I'm just gonna do it. I probably have about 6 to 7 months of hard training to get back to where I was before I fell into the beerfest and Ci Ci's pizza trap...but I can do it. There's nothing to stop me.
Last time JC and I broke up I met a really cute guy at school named Alex. I really liked him. Not so sure he liked me...but that was ok...then JC came back into my life and I forgot Alex. Today at work I met a cute French guy named Alex...weird.
Jessica's trip was good. There were some emotional moments, but the first day she was here...we cleaned...then on Friday we went and had the BEST dinner at Fleming's Steakhouse and Wine Bar. We drank a bottle of wine...had the best champagne infused Brie, and ate some rib eyes...Jess had mashed potatos with a gargonzola butter!!! And we had a VERY cute and nice waiter named Travis. Ask for him if you go there. I told Jessica, "I could go for some Travis." And then...thought...I've already been there done that with those waiter people and it's NOT good!!! Shopping on Saturday, and on Sunday we went and did a drive through safari. Jessica got slobbered on a lot more than Gabby and I did. She had to hold her hand out the window because it smelled like buffalo breath. So, I may not have been in the best of moods, but I did enjoy her visit. Especially that dinner...and the first night when we drank a few bottles of yummy wine...oh and we watched Marie Antoinette and A Very Long Engagement and The Notebook. Really great girly time. We even had Gabby taking out every bag of trash when we cleaned. And Jessica vacuumed my blinds.
But I have had an epiphany lately. I have spent the last 15 years of my life living for other people...living for stupid men who can't grow up. Three of them. And I went to school for my mom...at least at first...and of course I have to live everyday for Gabby. But now I have the perfect opportunity. I gave up so many job options to stay here in SA to be with JC because HE said he wanted to move in together...and HE said he wanted to marry me and have babies. So for the last two years...and especially for the last 8 months since I graduated...I lived basically to accomodate him. So....now I can do what I want. I can try to let go of all the silly fears that keep me from doing what I want. And I have wanted to be a personal trainer for forever. I think I would be so good at it. When I was working out hard...and lost so much weight...and was healthy...I actually had like 3 different people at work sign up at the gym...and everyone went on a healthy diet that year. I think I can motivate...and I think I can sell.
So...I talked to Ray the Savior today during my workout. And I'm just gonna do it. I probably have about 6 to 7 months of hard training to get back to where I was before I fell into the beerfest and Ci Ci's pizza trap...but I can do it. There's nothing to stop me.
Last time JC and I broke up I met a really cute guy at school named Alex. I really liked him. Not so sure he liked me...but that was ok...then JC came back into my life and I forgot Alex. Today at work I met a cute French guy named Alex...weird.
Jessica's trip was good. There were some emotional moments, but the first day she was here...we cleaned...then on Friday we went and had the BEST dinner at Fleming's Steakhouse and Wine Bar. We drank a bottle of wine...had the best champagne infused Brie, and ate some rib eyes...Jess had mashed potatos with a gargonzola butter!!! And we had a VERY cute and nice waiter named Travis. Ask for him if you go there. I told Jessica, "I could go for some Travis." And then...thought...I've already been there done that with those waiter people and it's NOT good!!! Shopping on Saturday, and on Sunday we went and did a drive through safari. Jessica got slobbered on a lot more than Gabby and I did. She had to hold her hand out the window because it smelled like buffalo breath. So, I may not have been in the best of moods, but I did enjoy her visit. Especially that dinner...and the first night when we drank a few bottles of yummy wine...oh and we watched Marie Antoinette and A Very Long Engagement and The Notebook. Really great girly time. We even had Gabby taking out every bag of trash when we cleaned. And Jessica vacuumed my blinds.
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