Dysfunction Suits Me

Gabby's favorite place to eat is Souper Salad. She doesn't like soup, and she really hates salad. Nonetheless...that's her favorite place to eat. I'm gonna guess because they have lots of kid friendly things like Goldfish, watermelon, cheese pizza...ice cream...finger foods. Gabby's least favorite place to eat is Logan's Roadhouse. I'm not sure why. Or at least I wasn't until a couple of days ago. She hates Logan's Roadhouse so much that Josh and I love to tease her about it. She'll say, "Where are we gonna eat?" And Josh or I will say, "We're going to Logan's." At which point she will scream and cry that she doesn't want to go and why can't we just go to Souper Salad. So, we did it to her again. Josh and I already planned on going to eat at Souper Salad, but while I was on the phone with him (Gabby screaming in the background "Souper Salad Souper Salad Souper Salad!"), I said, "Good id...

Being a girl sucks sometimes! For the whole last week I have felt gross and yucky. Fat and greasy. All of a sudden I wake up today, and guess what? No more fat and greasy. I feel thin (thinner) and squeaky clean. Being a girl sucks sometimes!

It's Monday morning, and I took today off from work. Right before the true tax season we get really low on work. So, they pretty much give us off any day we want. I'm taking off today and Friday. This past weekend was really great. And this is going to sound strange, but I feel really good about the fact that I'm saying I had a great weekend and Gabby was home with me. I feel like so often all of my "great" weekends are weekends that don't involve her, and that's just a shame. On Friday night my aunt and uncle were in town, so the whole fam went downtown and ate at Mi Tiera's. We got a little lost on the way home. Saw a crack deal goin' down. Good times. Saturday, took Gabby to eat at Red Robin. And then went to CD Exchange and the pet store with Andrea and Josh. I've been seriously thinking about getting Gabby and me two kittens for the last year. I think I've thought about it long enough that I might actually make it happen. O...

I'm trying to work over HERE a little more...

CAUTION: An obscene amount of pictures to follow. I have been doing some extreme catch up stuff here and over at my MySpace profile. I had learned to live without a computer, but of course, as soon as I get it back and running, I just can't seem to step away... NOTE TO SELF: The minute you finish posting this you WILL call cable company and finally get rid of this ridiculous dial-up internet!!! (The few times that I used other computers in the last few weeks I really got used to fast service, and now I'm so pissed off at the slowness of dial-up I might throw the damn computer across the room!!!) This first set is from my trip to DC to visit Jessie in December 2005. It's very, very sad. I think Jessie posted three pictures that she had taken, and I also only took three pictures from my whole three days there. These were taken the first night at a bar called Bilbo Baggins. Jessica, me, and Jessie's friend "Little" Jen... E, and Jessica with the very famous k...

Christmas was kind of rough on me this year...JC and I had broken up, I had just had my tonsils taken out, I had been deathly ill for months beforehand, and was really kind of just all around desperately depressed...as I'm sure you could tell from previous posts, but this little person with me in all these pictures somehow makes everything better...

These are just Joshy and me before we went out one night. I think this is from the night when JC and I were broken up, and he was out of town, so I went out with all of our friends. I think I own more black clothes than a nun... Look how debonair Josh looks...

The Time Machine people's Boss's wife was throwing the Boss a surprise birthday, which included a scavenger hunt before hand. Andrea was trekking around Big Bend National Park and couldn't be there, so instead we had her head on a stick to feel her presence. I also sang karaoke for the very first time this night..."I love rock'n'roll... Velma pours one on for Dre... JC and Jamie with Dre. .. The karaoke DJ serenades Dre... Awww. Dre's head, me, and way too much bronzer... Mr. Incredible getting jiggy with Dre...

Jessie, E, and I spent the day down on the Riverwalk. We then had dinner at JC's restaurant where JC waited on us as Obi-Wan Kenobi. We drank green potion drinks. Jessie and E were tuckered out, and went back to their hotel, but I had told everyone that I would be out and about, so I headed to [Snoopy Dog's]...the place where we go for karaoke every Friday night. These pictures make me a little ill...there's just TOO much GREEN going on... Jessie and E at the Time Machine with their Green Potion drinks... Look at the freakin' color of that beer. It looks toxic... Andrea and me. Um, yea, I think our eyes look a little red... Me, JC, JC's boss, and boss's wife...pay close attention...JC wore this hat that Andrea, me, and everyone else thought was the dumbest, most toolbag thing in the world, however...now that we've seen these pictures...it's actually pretty freakin' hilarious...watch the little drunk-o-meter...it really does move throughout the night...

Jessica has all the touristy pictures on her camera...I just have the "party pics". I love this place, the Bitter End...could be because the weekend before Jessica came down, JC and I spent a night there without anyone except the two of us, which is rare. It was cool for me to take Jessie out and kind of show her what I've been up to on the weekends when Gabby's not home, except I think she might have thought the amount of drinking going on was ridonculous. Coffe with the Schwenkster... First E played a couple of games of pool with Andrea at Clicks... Me, Jessie, E, and E's lips... Andrea and a very pale, washed out me, possibly tipsy me... Andrea, Mr. Incredible, JC, and JC's new glasses... The three of us again... I don't remember what she said, but it must have been pretty darn funny... Awwww... Ok, a little explaination...This random guy was sitting at the table behind us, and he seriously made this face and danced all night long. It was the funniest...

I guess I'll start from the beginning of my "missing" life, and work my way forward... JC SAGA - He called and wanted to work things out so that we could hang out in the same room with each other and be "friends". We had a bunch of long, emotional conversations, and everything happened really quickly. The next thing I knew he was telling me that he made the biggest mistake of his life, and that he had gotten scared. He tried to just think of all the bad things in our relationship when we weren't together, so that it would be easier on him, but in the end it didn't work. He tried seeing other people, and just couldn't get past "me". I held out for a few weeks, and told him that I just wasn't willing to tell him how I felt about the whole situation because I didn't trust him with my emotions whatsoever. But, in the end, we're back together and "working" on things. We're not making promises because promises make expe...

oIt's about DAMN time! I finally hooked up my computer today, and I'm back in business. So much to catch up on, but I'll have to save it because I'm busy trying to get pictures situated from Jess and E's trip here to San Antonio. They just left today. So, I will get that done, and get back here to blog about recent events ASAP!!!

...but I just don't have the time when I sit here at my parent's house to get everything down in detail...so, you're just going to have to live with the general. So...JC and I had talked a couple of weeks ago, and we set up this "lunch date" for this past Sunday to talk about things. By the end of last week, we decided that I would go out with Andrea to the karoke bar, and we would just be "cordial", and in a social setting, and whatever else...anyway...because I don't have much time, the gist is that Friday was awkward and a little drama filled, but we both had fun even though we only said hello to each other. We hung out again in a social setting on Saturday night, we had lunch on Sunday, and we ended up going out with Fern the Caveman and some other people to a gay bar. All is agreed that it was a most awesome weekend, but that tends to be our problem...awesome weekends...letting all that tension say more than it should...anyway...Things have ...

I want a new tattoo. I want to continue with the oceanic theme of the fish that's on my back, and I think I want to get a turtle to cover up the killer clown that I got when I was sixteen. I was talking to a guy from work on Saturday, and he's trying to get me to go to this tattoo show thing, so I was thinking...why not? And maybe I'll get a new cover-up tattoo. So, my dad thinks it's my processor that is compeletely fried in my computer. GREAT! I have this GPS Mapping class that pretty much requires me to use my computer everyday. It really sucks. I could use the computers at school, but I just really don't have the time to be up on campus that much between work and Gabby and the gym...when I'm not at school, I've still got lots more stuff to do. Working out with Ray Ray the Savior is going great! I'm dying pretty much everyday, but my friend Mando was right...your muscles have memory, and mine seem to be remebering what it was like to work out ...

...but not quite my fault! My computer is still out of commission, so I have to wait for the rare occassions when I have time at my parent's house when picking up Gabby to get anything down! So...not much news these days...school, work, Gabby, the gym...Oh, and why don't you take a wild guess as to who called me on Monday night, and wants to "make peace" with me...wants to establish and salvage some kind of friendship because this person wants me in their life? Any guesses?

My computer has been down, and the only chance I get to use one is at my parent's house, and we all know I try to go there as little as possible! Just kidding! I've been busy...school started...I have a cool GPS mapping class...walked a mile in that class today, through sanitized sewage, lots of rocks, poison ivy, and a cute boy named Alex who offered to carry my jacket when it got too hot and I took it off. I think I will definitely be looking forward to this class. Work started too...YUCK! I'm not happy with that place...more later. I just wanted to catch up for a quick second...Not too much to say...I have good days and bad days still. I'm depressed as hell most of the time, but I'm making it through and staying busy. I also started training with Ray Ray again! I haven't been able to walk without pain in a week! I'm trying to avoid writing about certain things on this blog anymore...or certain people...I'm finding that challenging...well, I ...

Massage and eyebrow wax today...pedicure tomorrow...pampering, pampering, pampering. School starts next week. Woo Hoo! My last semester! I'm taking two freshman level classes...they better be freakin' easy! Why didn't I think of this before??? I didn't know I had so many lower division hours left! I took all the hard upper division classes in the beginning! Maybe I should cut my hair off, too? I should be going back to work in the next couple of weeks, too. Yay! I've had too much idle time, which is not good for someone like me that thinks and analyzes way too much. Signing up with Ray Ray the Savior again...if he can fit me in...if not, he said he'd find me the next best trainer to kick my butt into gear.

My allergies are killing me today!!! The only thing I'm allergic to is mountain cedar, and it's that time of year again! I'm sniffling, coughing, and all pressured up! It's killing my still unhealed throat as well! So, I just thought I'd elaborate a little more on the other night when I ran into JC. It was an event that I really wanted to go to, and I really knew that I would be able to handle the situation well if he showed up. I guess I was looking cute, but I didn't really feel like it. Anyway, the "seeing of each other" happened the way I said it did before, but let me emphasize just how "wrong" the timing was. We seriously had to walk by each other right at the top of a flight of stairs, almost bumping into each, and like I said there was that single, weird moment of eye contact, and I cannot even describe the look that he gave me...it looked like complete devestation or something...then as I walked by him in what was probably only a nan...

I got a new car today!!! I am the proud owner of a 2006 Sonic Blue Ford Focus...it's so cute! I LOVE it!! I have driven a Mercury Tracer Wagon for the last seven years...first a green one, and then a tan one! I'm so excited to be back in the world of cars that don't scream MOMMY! Hope the New Year holds only good things for everyone out there...dreams and wishes and all that jazz coming true! I feel like mine will be great! I just feel it...and if it's not...well, I'll just have to make it great...because I am...the greatest person EVER, that is!!! The only resolution I'm making this year is to love myself more...to be the best lover I've ever had. Sure I would like to quit smoking and get back in the gym, but the more pressure there is on those kinds of things, the harder it is to get them done...besides, if I'm so into loving myself in this next year those things should just come naturally!!! This was a great blogging year...I got to "meet...

So, guess who, of course, was at the Sanctuary tonight? You guessed it...JC himself...the first time we've seen each other in like 3 weeks...we only had one moment where we had to walk past each other on a flight of stairs when he first got there, and we made a split second of eye contact...and guess who's okay? Some where down deep inside...I'm a little hurt...I miss him, and it hurts my pride that we couldn't even be in the same room without completely divereting our eyes from each other...but...I found out tonight...that I'm a little disenchanted with the whole thing...