Dysfunction Suits Me

My 32nd birthday was yesterday, and it was pretty awesome. I'm not so freaked out about getting older anymore. Every line on my face is just a reminder of how much I have laughed and cried in my life. A road map basically to the life I've lead up to this point. I took a half day off yesterday, did a little jewelry shopping, and then the festivities began. Andrea got my sister and P-Dub together and planned out the whole night. 1. Went to dinner at Joe's Crab Shack and had giant steam pots of crab legs! Delicious! Andrea, after she promised not to, told Frank the Tank, our waiter, it was my B-Day. He threatened the whole time about making me get up and dance, but I wasn't having it, and basically begged at the end. So...no dancing for me. 2. We came back to my apartment and rushed to get the heck out of here to make it downtown to the Cameo Theatre to see The Fourth Wall . There were only about 12 people in the audience...including us...it was pretty dang aw...

These are some pics of Gabby in Arizona with my parents, sister, grandmother and my aunt.

Well, he didn't really, but he hurt me, and he hurt himself. Every weekend morning after Black Hawk has eaten, he wants me to open the blinds and the windows so he can get some sun and some bird watching in. So, this morning I went lifted the blinds. Opened the window a crack. And I bent down to look outside. Right then Black Hawk comes bounding up between my legs on to the windowsill and in the process his head hit the side of my head and he held on for dear life with his claws. Which went right into my nail bed on my thumb. I can barely hit the space bar now. P-Dub thought it was pretty funny. But I was very concerned...about Black Hawk. I mean my head was hurting...and my head is about 4 times the size of his. And it's very hard. What if he has brain damage? I keep watching him to see if he's twitching or acting weird. Which is kind of hard because he's always weird...Only I would bonk heads with my cat. So, I guess he's just as weird as I am.

...just let me get through today! It's Friday, and I'm super stressed. One more day of work. That's it. Just have to get through today. Then I have a Dr.'s appointment at 5 and I'm done. Time to relax. I don't want to do anything or think about anything at all this weekend!!! Not sure if I'm going to end up going to Shane Dig. I really want to, but am already feeling lazy!!! I know P-Dub and I are going to go look at new cars for him at some point, but other than that...I just want to veg.

Broken. Everything is broken and falling apart. First, I bought a new TV in April (ok, my dad gave it to me as a Mother's Day/Birthday present). I have been VERY happy with the new TV. I have shrugged off flat sceen, fancy, new TVs for years, but I finally gave in because I knew it would make P-Dub happier to watch TV in my room...or anywhere in my house. I only got a 22". It was $250 for a Phillips, and it was just too good to be true. In fact, we asked the sales person why it was only $250 when the Best Buy name brand, Dynex, was more. He couldn't give us an answer. Actually, I think he tried to give us some line about because it was brand new, energy efficient, and the economy was bad. Whatever, we took it and ran. Turns out they had marked it with the wrong price. P-Dub went back the next day and it was actually $350. But you get what you pay for! The damn thing is broken! It keeps flickering and then it has a big green line across it. And of course I c...

So, last weekend I chilled on Friday. Went shopping with my sis on Saturday morning. Andrea was home from Canada and we went out to Baker Street for some drinks with P-Dub. Drank too much. Spent a lot of time by the pool. Thursday P-Dub and I are going to a Missions baseball game ($1 night!!!) with my friends Becky and Kevin. Friday is a friend from work's Baby Shower. And I think P-Dub and I might be going to a driving range to hit some balls and grab some drinks with Carolyn (my sister) and Scott (my brother-in-law). Maybe I can get in some extra pool time again. During the weeks I have dr.'s appointments, and daycare calling, and middle school arranging, and just lots of errands. Then, the next weekend is the 3rd Annual Shane Dig (my friend Shane throws a HUGE summer party/festival each year). And it's Father's Day. The next weekend is my birthday, P-Dub's stepdad's Graduation Party, and Jess' Baby Shower (which I won't be there for, but hav...

Today is the 3rd day I have taken Focalin for ADHD. Since stimulants do not build up on your body like anti-depressants, they pretty much start working right away and only last for 6-8 hours. Thursday I felt like I could tell the difference. And since I'm taking the extended release, I was really sure I could feel when the second release hit me. But, then came Friday. I stopped by P-Dub's office and was almost instantly irritate. But, I had already been in a funk all day. The weird thing is that my anxiety level, frustration, and...that stupid red-headed temper of mine didn't flare up really bad. It was like I could tell I was feeling all that stuff, and then it would kind of disapate. But, I came home and vented and cried for half an hour to P-Dub. Mostly about being frustrated with my life. And, then it went away. Last night I could tell it had definitely worn off though because I was hyper as shit. I used to think of myself as just being anxious all the...