Dysfunction Suits Me

"Give a Little Bit . . . " (I love that song!) My 330 class was cancelled. I ran home, blogged, ate, and peed (how the hell do you spell the past tense of pee?), and drove to school, parked, and walked the 15 minutes to the campus. Just so I could see a note on the door that said "Class Cancelled". I made it to the gym early as a consequence. I am dying in pain. I'm so sore! Where is Aaron the Beast and his stick when you need them??? I need to leave for my 7pm class here in a minute. Thursday nights are pretty rough. Up at 5, and my last class ends at 945pm. IT SUCKS!!!

Sinful Indulgences Diet Dr. Pepper - Please do not cringe . . . or call me a "weird-oh" *wink wink*. I love my Diet DP! I especially love it when it's a fountain drink. I do not buy it to stock in my fridge. I consider it a treat, and absolutely love going to a corner store and getting a 32 oz. Diet Dr. DP. In fact, I think I will stop on my way back to campus today, and indulge myself in pushing the button that will release my little piece of heaven - Diet Dr. Pepper.

I Ain't Got No Love . . . and I Ain't Got No Food! EMR

I Am Such A Flake T came on really strong in the beginning. Strong enough that he made me realize that I was maybe coming on too strong with the AOC, and needed to back off. But now, I haven't heard from T since Monday, and that was only because I called him. It's driving me nuts. It wouldn't be such a big deal except that he was calling and text messaging all the time, and now?...nothing! Ugh!!! Yes, guys, this is the way that women think . . . ok, well, maybe only the neurotic ones like me. Now I'm in that mode of "do I call or not call?", and "who can hold out the longest". I really hate playing games. I wish people would just come out and say what it is they're thinking ALL THE TIME!!! I worked out with Ray Ray today. He made a deal with me. If I don't show up on Tuesdays and Thursdays to do cardio, then he can make me do anything he wants on Wednesdays or Fridays. I'm not sure I should have made this deal. It will definitely make me ...

Maybe I Will Be Okay I just took a test in my Spatial Analysis class. This test and the project I turned in last week have been keeping me down since school started I think. Now that the test is over I feel so rejuvinated! Weird how that happens! BOYS: I've still been seeing T. He's fun, and he's cute, but I'm analyzing things, and thinking that part of my liking him has to do with him liking me . . . liking him because he adores me, because he gives me attention. He asked me how serious I wanted this thing between us to get. I was honest and said that I'm just not sure "where I am" right now. He was very mature about it, and said that he wanted it to go further, but he understood, and he still wants to "date" me, and he's very patient (whatever that means). JOSH: Josh and I hung out a lot this weekend. Mostly eating, as usual. Friday night I got drunk on red wine, and called Josh up to take me to IHOP for biscuits and gravy! Yum! I pulled ...

Josh is Smoking CRACK! Josh recently sent this picture to me with the following message: "This girl looks just like you! Her hair is blonde, but the way her back curves, the shape of the butt, the green pants and especially the face structure. Its scary! I'm looking at her legs and I know those legs! Anyway, her name is Amanda Beard and she is an Olympic swimmer featured in sports illustrated swimsuit issue." I'm not so sure I agree with him, but thanks anyways Josh for trying to make me feel better. You just need to add about 30 lbs to that girl!

I Have That Icky Icky Feeling In the Pit of My Stomach Looks like I'm going to be dropping one of my classes. I just can't do the full load this semester. I have this really hard class that is very important. I have to have the credit to graduate, so, better to drop a less important class and put more concentration into Spatial Analysis!!! Fun!!! I feel like such a baby because I had to ask my mom's permission, but she was very understanding, and even agreed that it might be easier on them too. I just got an email from the AOC with new photos. Oh God! I'm just so attracted to this man! In the meantime I'm having fun with T. He's absolutely gorgeous. I have to ask myself, "Why is this guy talking to me?" I've only ever seen one other person with prettier eyes than him (Jessica's first boyfriend, Kiss Chris). He looks like he's wearing mascara in a good way. I don't know how else to describe the way his eyelashes look. I'm eating Chik...

Someday Soon I'll Get It Together I'm home from work today. I feel like absolute crap. I've been eating horribly, skipping the gym, not sleeping, and kissing strange boys! Not really, but I did kiss T the other night, and I find it funny how I always get sick when I kiss someone new. My immune system is usually pretty strong. I don't get sick easily, but I don't think I can take the direct mixing of germs or something...at least until my body builds up the right antibodies to the new saliva in my life. I feel like this new guy T is really trying to invade my life, and I think he already has it in his head that I might be his next "one and only". How do I explain to him that I like him, that I'm having fun with him, but that I'm just not ready to "move ahead". I'm pretty sure that he' not a "future prospect". He's just fun for now...for the moment...to keep me from feeling too lonely. I already tried giving him the...

Does Anyone but Jessica and My Sister Actually Read This?? It's been almost a week since I last posted. I am bored with...um...myself, I guess. I said in my last post that I would write more about my weekend with Jess in DC, but, really, she did a much better job of summing it. So, just go here to read more. It's 2 am, and I had a really amazing time tonight. After having another disappointing rendevous with the AOC, I've been, well . . . disappointed. In the mean time, I went on a couple of short coffee dates with someone we'll call "T". T is not my type at all. We don't even really have that much in common, and this time, he's younger than me. Tonight we had our first official date. We went to dinner, and then came back to my place and hung out. Don't get any ideas!!! It was quite innocent, and very different from what I'm used to. He has the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. So, now that I've gone on a couple of dates with T . . . I...

I'm Home Not only am I home from visiting Jessica in DC, but I'm home from work as well. This spontaneous trip was not planned out very well, and I didn't give neurotic self enough time to have all of my laundry finished and hung up for the week. Not to mention I was very tired after an eventful weekend. Josh took half the day off on Friday to take me to airport. You're thinking..."Awww, isn't he sweet!" Nope. He's really not. He's was just jealous, and needed to be involved in some way shape or form. He can't stand it when he doesn't get to be my "savior". I borrowed a suitcase for this trip, and it didn't have a lock on it. I know, you're not supposed to lock your luggage anymore, but I'm anal, and I just want to say "F-You" to the man! Josh and I stopped off at Target to get one. My god, never once can we just walk in a store together and not buy just what it is we came for. As we were looking for the lock...

Let Go Today's the day. I'm off the start packing and getting ready to fly to Virginia!!! I'm so excited!!! I'm walking a little weird today though from being sore thanks to Ray, my new trainer! After sitting on a plane for 5 hours I'll probably need Jess to grab one of those airport wheelchairs!!! Why do people always ask me about "joining the real world" after I finish school? I was in the real world. I did nothing but work and live hand to mouth from the ages of 18-24. That's why I went back to school!!! It's not like I've been a college student since I left high school! I especially lived in the real world right after Gabby was born and her dad lived here with us. I did that for 2 years. Living with the most evil of all men was real enough, thank you!

Update #2 I'm not sure I like this. This was supposed to be an outlet, not something I do to keep up to date, or rush through. But I'm so busy now! I'm having a hard, emotional day, and I'm not quite sure why! Tomorrow is the day!!! I am off to DC to see Jessie!!! I can't wait. It's been over a year since we've seen each other. There's a possibility of an AOC merry meeting while I'm in DC as well!!! Will it happen? Should we take a poll? School just keeps getting more and more overwhelming. I don't quite know what to do... Everything is awesome with my new trainer, but he is really tough. He may be in competition with Aaron for title of the BEAST!!!