Let's try this again...

So, yea, I can swallow without choking and dying in pain, but my stomach so hates the feel of anything inside of it. I've also developed some really bizarre, serious taste aversions. Even the smell of food makes me want to throw up for days, and that's exactly what I've been doing. I've got to find out what's wrong with me. My ear and tonsils still hurt, so I made a doctor's appointment for today. Hopefully I can get a referral to an ENT, and get this whole mess sorted out. I might also need a referral for a nutritionist. This morning I was able to eat saltines and some fruit, and I don't feel sick...yet? I'm guessing that this is what people have been starved or starve themselves go throught when they're trying to get back to normal eating habits. I hope so. I'm just going to have to stick with toast and chicken broth or something...um, wait, no...the smell of chicken makes me NAUSEOUS!!! The only thing that tastes good to drink is regular Dr. Pepper, so I've been having a lot of that, but now I'm dehydrated again.

I feel 100% better than I did a week ago, but I'm still only like 30% of my normal self...maybe 50%...and I can't really explain why it is that I still feel "sick" and just "not right". I'm weak and hungry and grumpy and crying non-stop...I thought I might be having a nervous breakdown last night...I don't believe in god, but maybe those of you who do can say a little prayer or something. I'm also going to try going to see my massage therapist this week who calls herself a healer and is into crystals and all that kind of stuff...I'm thinking I can't be picky right now...I'm willing to try anything!

Pretty Decent Weekend

I went out Friday night, and....I met someone. We really, really hit it off. I think some of you who know me really well would be shocked at how good looking he is. His name is Paul, he's 29, and he's only been in San Antonio for about a week. Anyway, we talked all night, I drank a little too much, and so did he, so the night didn't actually end that well because there was an argument between him and Andrea. I thought he was a little rude, and also maybe he would be scared off. But we were texting last night, and we're going to meet up next Friday. I really do think he should apologize to Andrea first though. Although, I'm so green with this dating thing...I almost think that's too much to ask when you're getting to know someone. I don't know, you tell me. Saturday I pretty much did nothing but recover. And then Sunday, Andrea, Gabby, and I went hiking. We did a Level 4 out of 5 trail for an hour and a half. I'm not sure how many miles it...

The Blonde Hurricane said…

Do you think it could be the meds that you've been on that have totally killed your appetite? It sounds JUST LIKE when I had my gall bladder out -- I had NO interest in eating. First it was because I was in so much pain. So naturally I got dehydrated. Then, it was because of the drugs before and after the surgery. I remember the SMELL of this warm ham that they were serving at the hospital. I KNEW it was good but the smell made me want to puke. I could just choke down water and jello. Then, the week I was recovering at my mom's house, she would bring in trays of food that I could barely stand to look at! It takes a while for the meds to totally get out of your system. One day I just woke up and was like, "Mom! I'm hungry! Can I have one of those little pizzas?" And my appetite was back. I hope it's the same for you, Liz. I'll totally say some prayers for you. I hope you'll be feeling 100% soon.

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Jammie J. said…

If you're on any sort of antibiotic, you could be having a reaction to those. Nausea/food sensitivity is a fairly common side effect.

(hugs)

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Kaycee said…

Wish you were feeling better! Smooches from the pooches. We will say a prayer for you and keep our paws crossed.

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