When I saw the pictures we took on our hike up and around Enchanted Rock...I wanted to cry and decided I wasn't going to post them...ANYWHERE! Decided I couldn't bear for anyone to see me at the heaviest I've ever been...well the heaviest minus the 15 lbs. I've lost.
Then I got angry. At myself. I lost 70 lbs. at one time and then gained back 90! How did I let this happen??!!
I have the opposite problem of an anorexic. When I look in the mirror I tend to see someone smaller than what they really are. So, seeing those pictures was a big wake up call. A huge motivator.
Now that I'm feelilng more motivated and completely inspired to be in as great shape as I was around 2003-2005, I'm ok with posting these photos. This is what I look like at this point in my life. I'm learning to love myself no matter what. AND...I promise I will not look like this for long! That's a huge promise to myself!
Then I got angry. At myself. I lost 70 lbs. at one time and then gained back 90! How did I let this happen??!!
I have the opposite problem of an anorexic. When I look in the mirror I tend to see someone smaller than what they really are. So, seeing those pictures was a big wake up call. A huge motivator.
Now that I'm feelilng more motivated and completely inspired to be in as great shape as I was around 2003-2005, I'm ok with posting these photos. This is what I look like at this point in my life. I'm learning to love myself no matter what. AND...I promise I will not look like this for long! That's a huge promise to myself!
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