Dysfunction Suits Me

I'm going to see Twilight with my work crush tomorrow.

...I don't really want to get my hopes up...buuuutt...I've had this little crush for the last 1 1/2 years that has never really been a possiblity of something even remotely happening there. However, there have been some recent developments...like this crush's relationship ending...there's still another obstacle...we work together...but, last night...we emailed back and forth for 4 hours. What does this mean????

I've been struggling lately with what a friendship really means. I came across this article that I thought was really interesting (too long to copy and paste). I don't know how I've become an "Echo" in some of my more recent friendships. I'm certainly not an "Echo" with my family or with any guy I've ever dated. I don't know why I've allowed myself to become one. It's not me. http://www.oprah.com/article/relationships/friends/pkgletsgettogether/ss_omag_200804_mbeck/1

I've been on a path of thinking negatively again. I constantly think about what I DON'T want versus what I do. And, I constantly think about the things I CAN'T do anymore, or shouldn't, instead of what I can or should. 1. I want to be strong and healthy. Physically. 2. I want to travel. 3. I want to continue to excel in this career I never thought I would have, but somehow am pretty good at. 4. I want to one day complete my dream of being a personal trainer...even if it's just on the weekends...even if it's just being certified. 5. I want to meet new people, and develop meaningful relationships. 6. I want to go back to when Gabby was home every other weekend...instead of not being here any weekend. 7. I want to come home every other Friday, fix my daughter and me dinner. Watch a movie together and spend time with our kitties. 8. I want to pursue my brand of happiness. 9. I want to learn to speak Russian. 10. I want to go back to reading before bed instead of wat

The Namesake Smart People Sex and the City Under the Same Moon Then She Found Me Made of Honor Forgetting Sarah Marshall They are all really, really good. All of them made me laugh AND cry.

I started out the day looking for a colorful cocktail dress. After going to 4 stores, I hoping to find a colorful t-shirt at the very least. I wish I was a man!