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Being honest with myself...

I can sit here, and sound really self-righteous sometimes...and very together...and the truth is that a lot of the time I'm just plain lonely and struggling. I've never thought that I was the kind of person that could spend my life without a relationship...even though I know I CAN, I'm not sure I want to...it's such a hard place that I'm in right now...past a lot of hurt...but still feeling quite tender a lot of the time. I guess sometimes it just takes longer to be completely over things. Boy, I'm rambling here. What's my point? I've kind of forgotten it....

I guess it's that I am starting to miss being in a relationship...but...I still really want to concentrate on me. And losing weight...my biggest struggle is number one on the list...I've got the depression and anxiety under control for the most part...I've got the career thing under way...I've been concentrating and putting a lot of energy into fixing what's on the inside...but definitely not a lot of time on the outside. I've really, really let myself go...

One day at a time...I can do this. I did it once before. Mind over bread. I will do this.

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stephanie said…
I am rooting for you!!!
9:29 AM
Jacq said…
I've found that the best times of my life were when I was getting used to being on my own, and all the lessons I learned from that experience. Just when you're content with you life, that's when "IT" happens!!!!

Enjoy the wonderful time you have for yourself as you recognize your worth! You deserve it!!!!!

Listen to the voice of reason! I've been there! Take it easy on yourself. You know how hard you work to make everything better and to be a good mom, daughter and friend.
8:32 PM
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