Dysfunction Suits Me

I've been writing so many more blogs over on my MySpace than I have here! But, they're very frivolous over there. I do a lot of surveys, and a lot of just silly things. But, it's harder here. Since I began this blog, almost 3 years ago, as a "journal" almost...it's hard for me to just throw something out there that isn't laced with "feeling"...but I just haven't had much of those lately. Feelings. I mean I have, but I've been really numb, too. Which may be a good thing for me. I probably need to feel numb for a little while after all the trauma.

I love pedicures. And would love to get them pretty often, but the truth is I only make it like once every 3 months or so. A month ago I took Andrea to get her first pedicure, and we decided to get wild and crazy. I got my first "design" on my big toe. A hiabiscus. I LOVED it! Then, yesterday, it was time for a new look. Andrea went for a very wintery theme...Christmas blue w/ a very nice snowflake. I decided to go for a "New Yearsy" look. Russian Navy, with a kind of twinkling star...well, the girls didn't get it. Andrea tried really hard to explain to them what I wanted, but in the end the lady just said, "You want snowflake?" And I gave in, and just said, "Yea, give me a fucking snowflake!" Well, without the cursing anyway. As she began I immediately knew it was an awful idea....she started by making a HUGE cross...and the more I watched her try to fill it in...the more my face crumpled...the more Andrea laughed at me....Anyway, I guess it